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‘‘In the Middle of Chaos ★’’
![]() Saturday, December 25, 2010 @ 8:46 AM
![]() i told my care leader, nicholas about my situation and how i managed to feel alittle more better after this 7 months... and he agreed with me . ok , i just wanna post this before i sleep .. In reality , i am no doubt a chubbly person to talk with , to play with.. but when i am quiet down , i am the different me again. probably thinking about last year christmas is so different from now. ha . What can i expect ? but although i lose the most important person that once craved in my heart , in exchange , i encountered alot of friends to make up for it . Single is good .. is about freedom . :) I am like a bird, i fly far .. when i did take off and fly away, i wont fly back to the same destination . I know inside my mum heart , she cant accept the way i am in now.. but one day she understand the decision i made during that day. I love my parent and sister and will continue to love them. Life is unpredictable, once i thought my life will be stuck at a point where i am tied down to a commitment but realize i am not that person who is used to be tied down . I am a bird .. who is up in the air ... :) I am not sure if that person would view my blog but i have to tell him that the decision i made that time was firm , like the decision i made recently. I am not those person who anyhow make decision. A decision has to be firm when you commit them. This is my principles. I never regret my decision. And thankfully, i am letting off of that thorn in my heart, that thorn has been inside me for so long .. for 6 months. I am glad to say that i have learn to let go and i learnt that Living happily is what i should be pursuing . not hatred. A person living in hatred wont be happy . :) Hope you will be happy from whatever you did. And, after this post, i will delete all my past and begin a new life of mine. Yes ! All will be deleted away . Hope god will allow me to meet another guy which understand me well . "D i dont need a rich guy, i dont need a powerful guy with very high in status... i just need someone who truly understand me and believe and trust in me whatever i said. No matter what i say .. indirect or direct, he wont take it to heart and believe i said it out as a joke. I hope he will trust in me which is the most important factor. To hug me when i am cold, to hold my hand regardless of my sweaty palms and be generous in heart. Most importantly, to love me the way i am .. The real me . Thank god! ^^ |
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