today i was like kanna slap by a indian... at the train ...
ok.. here wad happen..
the train was jerking .. and he was about to lose his balance..
so he try to act like matrix reloaded and find his own balancing ..
well ... the problem is..... his stupid hand hit my face while tring to pull himself up and aim for the nearest metal pole... what the...
argghhh ... nvm ... just dont let me see him again ..

den recieved his sms ... saying the last moment he will me calling me baby ..
and he will let go of everything we used to shared...
well, the thing is weird this time ..

i dont feel extremely happy,
i dont feel extremely sad..
i dont feel extremely pain ..

i just feel Numb.. yes... Numb the best word i can find.
Love is not in my dictionary anymore..
Not anymore.. The pain i used to feel was Gone and completely seal ...

what i am waiting now is my career , my future..
My life , my Music.. that i am pursuing at a higher level ...
Everything that to do with music involves me in ..

probably at the another part of the world..
we are just two aimlessly soul waiting for the Right one to arrive ...
Yes. the Mr and Mrs Right to be...
This is the time to make mistakes...
There is no perfect love in this world..
There is no prove or fact that the one u are having now will walk with you down the aisle..
This is the time for us to know what we want in life... when we fell down, we stand up at our own feet..

Yes, standing at my own feet is the only word i can find in my dictionary...
i make myself stronger by exposing my soul to the outside world rather than stay hidden in an protective shelter.. No, i wouldnt want to do that.. in the end, i am responsible for my own life.